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Today is cold.
I met him and do not understand him.i felt stupid.
i should give up.
When i met him i became nervous.
normally i do not nervous in front of people.
I just can not control myself.
and i did nothing today,but drunk 4 cups of coffee in 3 different cafes.
i do not know what i am doing?

I do not understand,am i psyco?
i like someone,even i just want to be a friend with him,but i do not know why i always text to him,i texted to him over 12 messeges during the day.i think i am doing something too much passion.i can not stop to explain myself to talk some rubbishes,maybe i try to let him understand me,but i think that is really stupid way.and i afraid because that he do not like me anymore.
does he afraid to see me or just being busy this week,my feeling always tell me something wrong over there.maybe something just doesn't work.but i also afraid when i am thinking something too much ,after that things become true.am i a witch?hopefully not,this idea freak me out.

I do not know what i am doing.i am so confused.
i make something hard for me.
can i just live in the dream?do not wake me up,please!until die...

not bad!

I have to shut up.
it is dangerous.
I talk too much.and i tell people everything.too childish.
too stupid.